Cover of Nine Inch Nails - Something I Can Never Have I redid this for Lensey
Years have gone by,yet only my perception has changed. Same issues are present, just as the eighties.
Though I’ve come to believe -
My Attitude Has Gotten Worse…
I tell you I’ll wait and/or want to be with you. I tell her I’ll wait and/or want to be with her…
When the truth is = I just say that because I want to hear it. I don’t want nothing to do with these faithless girls.
And the only thing I really miss, is the IDEA of what Could have been.
Elizabeth= realized I was just a lay & wasn’t worth starting over with. After she had a “scare”.
Katie= just wouldn’t believe me & because of that I didn’t even try.
Ami= I walked away because I wasn’t grown enough.
EVERYONE ELSE= just a faithless girl I want nothing to do with.
AGAIN, And the only thing I really miss, is the IDEA of what Could have been.
So now that IDEA is gone.. And i stopped saying the lie “I’ll wait and/or want to be with you.” I am putting this out there because 1- i have no more phucks left. 2- i am leaving GA never to return. 3- i have moved on in every way possible. 4- no one reads this anyway…
This is what I say about HER…
A wrong kiss goodnight
One day at a time
Wont cry for yesterday
I pray for the courage to simply walk away
I just cannot wait, to rap my arms around you & yours around me. Feel your heart beat next to mine. While the world stops & it’s just us for a moment in pure love beyond eternity. To be held & loved by an Angel, is the greatest gift I have ever received without earning.
I haven’t a clue where I stand?
Walking blindly to a place I never experienced before.
And I still feel pain.
All growing stronger till I tremble.
Fighting, knowing this wont ever go away.
Things have changed greater than I have dared to dream.